Believe in you

26/12/09

Jeep-I found that choosing him, is the most precise decision I have ever made in my life. And this is becoming more and more convincing, when I see how much he cares for me, as days go by..

This evening, we went out for dinner with his friends. It was a jeep, and both of us sitting at the back, which was exposed to the strong wind. It should be a fancy experience, riding all the way down hill. But when they purposely hit the hump for the sake of fun, I jumped out of my seat. He was really mad and scolded his friend badly. It was the first time I saw him so angry and talked so loud like that. He told them I nearly hit the roof and asked them to drive slow.

It started to rain on the way, though we just felt a little rain drops, he insisted to stop down so that I can change to the front seat, which was protected from the rain... And while I was sitting in front, he kept beeping on the temperature readings, once it dropped he quickly asked his friend to adjust the air-con and told them I can't stand cold.. After all, his friend sighed to me, "See, he cares for you so much.." I smiled.. I know he always cares for me, and trying his best to protect me all the time...

And suddenly I felt my handphone vibrating, I quickly opened my handbag and searched for it in the dark. Immediately he leaned forward from his seat to the front, asking me what I was searching for, either handphone or medicine. His sudden exaggerating response frightened his friends beside, and they felt funny to see his act. Undeniably, he is always more anxious than me, whenever I have signs of sickness..

And now, I know that I have chosen the correct person as the partner of my life, and never been so grateful that I decided to believe in him from the start, when he hold my hand and told me he loves me...

Sweet Dreams

16/12/09

Sweet Dreams-
It has been two weeks that we didn't see each others...
I know that he is having a very hectic schedule, and very tired most of the time, so I decided not to disturb him, but just wait for him to call me, though sometimes really miss him very much...

Tonight lying on the bed, suddenly I remembered the night when we were playing chess before sleep, and the loser have to offer the winner a massage. That was really funny because the chess is actually meant for children, with 'spiderman' as the theme. This problematic guy kept complaining that the dice was too tiny to twist. Finally being the winner, I refused to accept the rewards, afraid that I might have internal injury following the unskillful massage. And there was another night when we competed 'Soduku' in his office. At the end I denied that I lost by blaming him made a lot of mistakes on the table.

When thinking of all those moments that we spent together, I can't help myself laughing now. I really miss him a lot, and extremely hope to see him soon..

Sweet dreams, darling. ^^

Happy Birthday

15/12/09

A stranger you were once.
Then, with a gentle look you took my hand.
As our lives engaged,
you lit my life and I held both your hands.
Now that time has passed,
ours souls have indeed become one.
How fortunate we are
that we have found the love so true
that everyone dreams about.

"I fall in love with you just thinking about you, remembering all the memories we've made... falling in love for the first time, our first kiss, saying our first I love you's, finding more to love about each others every day. And whenever I think about all the wonderful things that lie ahead of us, I fall totally and completely in love with you all over again...Happy Birthday darling."

The One

6/12/09

Future-
During dinner in the club, suddenly he told me he talked to his mum about me. I was not paying much attention until he repeated twice. I looked at him and smiled, when he told me how he described me to his mum and what she said... he told me his mum is very nice, and not a typical mother-in-law.. Don't know why, I felt like I can see our future in his eyes...

Fate is funny, everything was just happened in two months time, but it was like decades since we knew each others, and never felt so comfortable just to live together under one roof...

No doubt, this is all because of the destiny, the love and trust between us, which is so true that nothing can separate.

No matter what

29/11/09

Decision-
Today, i make a decision, a very tough decision in my life, that I decided to consume corticosteroid. After few weeks of consideration, though very reluctant, I know that now is the time to start this medication, or else I will be one of the patients lying in the nephrology ward. It is never an easy decision for me to make, undeniably, I truly afraid of the side effects of corticosteroid, from a list of complications it may carry, that's the reason why I kept escaping when doctor prescribes me this medicine. Anyway, so sad to admit but it's true, this is the only medication that can cure me, though not permanently, at least to halt the worsening of my condition...

I'm phobia of the pain, it starts from the evening, almost every day, as if a curse, and all of a sudden every single joint is involved, that every step I made is completely piercing my heart... I don't know whether he notice, that is the reason why I went to bed very early, in order to reduce as much movement as possible.

I told him my decision, seem he didn't know much about this corticosteroid. I didn't know how to initiate the explanation, as every sentence will just frighten him, if he would know the list of side effects...

I hope that he loves me is because of all that I am, but not only because of my external look. Just like I used to tell him, no matter what he becomes, I will still love him...