Secret

24/06/10

Sex and the city--
I like this movie, especially the part when Carrie decided to tell Big she was kissing with her ex, though all her best friends told her not to do so. Bearing with the risks that her marriage might just be screwed up by this incident, still she decided to be honest to the man she loves, as what she said, there shouldn't be any secret between them..

I'm pretty agree with her. That's the reason why I always tell him the guys whoever tried to approach me. You know what, actually I can just hide it as he will never knows, ever since he never suspicious on me. But I just don't know why, right in front of him, I can't tell any lies.. I have no ability to lie, to the man I love and who loves me so much too.. Perhaps Carrie and I have the same belief, there shouldn't be any secret between two people who love each others so much.

Well, there is something I always say, I have already found the best guy, what should I expect more?? I'm contented enough, just to be loved by this man. ^^

Am I?

'I don't need anyone in my life.'-

He said this in our conversation. I was shocked, and very quiet.. There was a very strong feeling of sadness arising from the bottom of my heart. I felt very very very sad.. sad until I can't even open my mouth to give him any response. He didn't notice, tears were running around my eyes..

'So you meant you don't need me as well.' After some moment, I managed to speak something. He noticed there was something wrong, immediately he hold my hand, said he didn't mean that, just something wrong with the words he used.

I knew he never meant that, but still my heart was broken once those words were heard. Suddenly I felt myself had become someone very different from the 'me' before I met him. I have become a very sensitive girl, I will smile for very small sweet things that he does, and shed tears for just the stupid nothing that he did. Suddenly I have a doubt, am I doing the right thing for loving him so much.. Am I??

Tell me please

thousands of gratitude-

I noticed that i never do things right, most of the time the tasks and things passed on to my hands are either spoiled or ruined. My mum said this is my fate since small, and she has lost her patience for getting mad on me, since it won't make any changes...

And ever since we been together until now, i spoiled most of the properties in the house, and ruined most of the tasks which were under my responsibility. I broke the lock of the room, destroyed the shower head, lost the plug for bathtub, dropped the cushion, dumped the nail cutter somewhere I can't even recall.. There are always problems created by me, forgot to bring the important stuff while already on the way where reverse is not allowed, laptop being hacked and need urgent format yet didn't know what and where the driver was, found the car battery was empty at midnight and need to change it soon before the day, forgot to off the light and caused the house fulled of insects in all species.. there are too lots to mention, and the worse one was that I trapped the cheque in the printer and get it printed with words..

All after all, what surprised me most, was that he never ever get irritated or throw a single word on me..Never never never.. What he did were just solving all the problems that I created and repaired all the things that i spoiled...

Tell me please, who else in the world can treat me better than him..who else in this world can love me more than he does..