Secret

24/06/10

Sex and the city--
I like this movie, especially the part when Carrie decided to tell Big she was kissing with her ex, though all her best friends told her not to do so. Bearing with the risks that her marriage might just be screwed up by this incident, still she decided to be honest to the man she loves, as what she said, there shouldn't be any secret between them..

I'm pretty agree with her. That's the reason why I always tell him the guys whoever tried to approach me. You know what, actually I can just hide it as he will never knows, ever since he never suspicious on me. But I just don't know why, right in front of him, I can't tell any lies.. I have no ability to lie, to the man I love and who loves me so much too.. Perhaps Carrie and I have the same belief, there shouldn't be any secret between two people who love each others so much.

Well, there is something I always say, I have already found the best guy, what should I expect more?? I'm contented enough, just to be loved by this man. ^^

Am I?

'I don't need anyone in my life.'-

He said this in our conversation. I was shocked, and very quiet.. There was a very strong feeling of sadness arising from the bottom of my heart. I felt very very very sad.. sad until I can't even open my mouth to give him any response. He didn't notice, tears were running around my eyes..

'So you meant you don't need me as well.' After some moment, I managed to speak something. He noticed there was something wrong, immediately he hold my hand, said he didn't mean that, just something wrong with the words he used.

I knew he never meant that, but still my heart was broken once those words were heard. Suddenly I felt myself had become someone very different from the 'me' before I met him. I have become a very sensitive girl, I will smile for very small sweet things that he does, and shed tears for just the stupid nothing that he did. Suddenly I have a doubt, am I doing the right thing for loving him so much.. Am I??

Tell me please

thousands of gratitude-

I noticed that i never do things right, most of the time the tasks and things passed on to my hands are either spoiled or ruined. My mum said this is my fate since small, and she has lost her patience for getting mad on me, since it won't make any changes...

And ever since we been together until now, i spoiled most of the properties in the house, and ruined most of the tasks which were under my responsibility. I broke the lock of the room, destroyed the shower head, lost the plug for bathtub, dropped the cushion, dumped the nail cutter somewhere I can't even recall.. There are always problems created by me, forgot to bring the important stuff while already on the way where reverse is not allowed, laptop being hacked and need urgent format yet didn't know what and where the driver was, found the car battery was empty at midnight and need to change it soon before the day, forgot to off the light and caused the house fulled of insects in all species.. there are too lots to mention, and the worse one was that I trapped the cheque in the printer and get it printed with words..

All after all, what surprised me most, was that he never ever get irritated or throw a single word on me..Never never never.. What he did were just solving all the problems that I created and repaired all the things that i spoiled...

Tell me please, who else in the world can treat me better than him..who else in this world can love me more than he does..

Careless

09/04/2010

Accident- Undeniably, I'm a very careless girl..I didn't know what was going wrong, when I accidentally slipped and fell down from the staircases in front of his apartment. He was very shocked and nervous, quickly hold me and helped me to stand, though there were lot of stuffs in his hands..Along the way back to the house, nearly hundred times he asked me whether there was any pain.. Though I told him many times that I was alright, still he looked at my face in a very close distance, wanted to see whether I was in pain or not..

He frowned and sighed for the whole night, told me he was frightened by me.. Once we reached, he immediately lifted up my trousers, kneel down to look for any injury of my legs.. Looking at his anxious face, suddenly I felt so warm and grateful, to have a man who loves and cares for me so much..

Days after that, whenever we walked across the staircases again, he will pay much attention on me, hold me tight and watched my steps, make sure that the careless girl beside him will never fall down again.. :)

I love..

I love the way we finish each other's sentences.
I love the way I know you'll never give up on me.
I love the fact that I wouldn't ever give up on you.
I love the way you look at me.
I love how beautiful your eyes are.
I love the way I can't imagine a day without you in my life.
I love the way if we were ever separated I wouldn't know how to go on.
I love the way we cuddle and watch sunsets together.
I love how I know you'll always be there when I need you to be.
I love the fact that I will always be there for you too.
I love how when I dream of my life partner, the only person that I can see is you.
I love how complete I feel when I am with you.
I love how our bodies just fit together.
I love the way you make me laugh.
I love the way you laugh.
I love the way you won't compromise yourself when we are together.
I love the way you won't let me compromise myself.
I love your thoughtfulness.
I love your tenderness.
I love your ability to speak without saying a single word.
I love the way we glance at each other across the room and know what each other is thinking.
I love the way, how even though we may be miles apart I still feel like you're right here with me.
I love your love for the things that interest me.
I love the way you let me live my life freely without jealousy.
I love how you demand respect but are not controlling.
I love how I would do anything in this world to make you happy.
I love how you would do anything in this world to make me happy.
I love the way your voice sounds over the phone.
I love the way your voice sounds when you whisper sweet nothings in my ear.
I love the completeness and oneness I feel when we make love.
I love your sensuality.
I love how our romance feels like the perfect romance movie.
I love how you are my soul mate.
I love the way you handle troubled times.
I love the way you respect me.
I love the way you protect and defend me.
I love how you feel when we cuddle.
I love the softness of your lips against mine.
I love the softness of you lips against my body.
I love laying in bed at night talking about nothing.
I love waking up to find we've been cuddling together all night.
I love the surprises you leave for me.
I love your intelligence.
I love your ingenuity.
I love your ability to make friends where ever we go.
I love your love for life.
I love your passion for your hobbies and interests.
I love how every time I look at you, you take my breath away.
I love how I thank God everyday for bringing someone as wonderful as you into my life.
I love the special moments that we shared that will remain my fondest memories of you and I.
I love spending the holidays with the one person I love the most.
I love how my heart skips a beat whenever you walk into the room.
I love how you love me.
I love how I love you.
I love the ways you choose to show your affection for me.
I love the way you inspire me to be more than I am.
I love the way you spark my creativity and imagination.
I love the way you make me feel like anything is possible as long as I'm with you.
I love your sense of humor.
I love the way you make me feel like royalty.
I love you just the way you are.
I love your spontaneity.
I love our life together.
I love how if I died right now I would be the happiest person alive knowing I found my one true love.
I love the fact that we will grow old together.
I love your way with words.
I love the way you look when you are sleeping.
I love your willingness to share everything and most especially your heart with me.
I love your strength of character.
I love taking showers together.
I love the way you treat me.
I love the way you take care of us.
I love the way you take the time to thank me for doing every day things.
I love the way you show your affection when we are around friends and/or family.
I love the way you are not scared to show your affection when we are in public.
I love your confidence.
I love your ability to make me feel better when times are tough.
I love the way you support me when I'm off track.
I love the way you take the time to show me how much you love me.
I love your beautiful hair.
I love your ability to talk things through.
I love your courage to be you.
I love your greatness.
I love the fact that you want to be with me and only me.
I love how I am and feel when I am with you!
I love you for you, My darling ~

Night Mare

22/03/2010

Dream-
Tonight I dreamed of something terrible, I saw that my beloved man cheated on me.. There were different girls he brought back to our room.. They were lying on our bed .. I can't really remember the scene. The only thing which is so strong was the feeling of heartbreak, when I saw them staring at me, I felt my heart was being pierced by a sharp knife, and I could hardly breath..

I decided to leave him, though he begged me to stay.. 'I don't want you anymore!' I said to him, with extreme frustration...I felt very very sad.. The feeling was so strong that made me awake..

Once I opened my eyes, I saw him still sleeping beside me, with his arms cuddling me.. I smiled to myself, what a stupid dream! I know for sure, this day will never come, he will never treat me like that.. because he used to say, I'm the person he loves and cares most.. I know he will never want to see me feeling sad..

I continued sleeping, decided to tell him this funny dream when we wake up together in the morning.. ^^

Decided to..

16/03/2010

Question-Recently, I've been quite close to his best friend, as we have similar topics and same hobby.. His friend is a very handsome and outgoing guy, he cares for me a lot, and we spend most of the time together when he been to work..

Until one day, he told me, he think his friend is falling in love with me.. I was very shocked as I never expect this to be happened..He asked me, what would I do, if his friend asked me to give him a chance.. 'What you want me to do?' I throw the question back to him.. He said, he didn't know.. But,I saw sadness in his eyes..

'I don't like him, no matter how many guys coming around, I won't like them too..' I told him, with smile.. I know for sure, there won't be any other guys who can treat me better than him.. And another thing I didn't tell him, is that he is the only one I love, and I have decided to love him, til the end of my life... :)