Beautiful Life

26/04/11

9 months-It has been a long long time since my last post..
There are many reasons contributed to the long paucity, but the major one was because I don't have any special feeling or memorable incident which worth recorded.

There were a couple of unhappy incidents happened during the past months.. Anyhow, glad that those incidents are kind of 'over', although the problems still not completely solved..I have tried my best, but there is nothing more that I can do, since both sides are my beloved..

Most people will prioritize the things important in their life, but I don't feel that this is a good idea. Life is short, yet there are too many things worth appreciated, and happiness is actually a combination of all, a supportive family, lovely relationship, stable career, laughter and joyous, we can simply find a balance between all these aspects, if we are not too greedy..

And I'm definitely not a greedy person, since I already have too much that I ask for.. Life is beautiful~ Thanks God for all that I have. :)

Part of Me

17/07/2010

Intimacy-Tonight, we experienced our first intimacy... Actually it's not really our first time, but it was the first that he leave part of him inside my body.. He kissed me on my forehead before sleep.. Looking at this man, I really wish to tell him how much I love him, that I willing to do so with all my heart, to be a girl who totally belongs to him.

On the second day, he saw me suffering from nausea and abdominal discomfort, he was truly anxious and worried, blamed that the emergency pill was a terrible one, with so many side effects..Seeing his angry face, I just felt funny..In fact I knew it from the start, but I never regret to do so.. Because it is all for the man I love, and who loves me so much too..

And I never expect that he will tell me something so sweet..
"Dear, I felt that you have become part of me.." he said.. :)

Brighten up my life

17/07/10

Thinking of the Past-
This weekend I stayed alone in my room, reminding me my past old life, when I was still single.. which I wake up seeing no one beside, had my breakfast alone, watched movie and laughed to myself, studied in front of laptop, drove out alone to get my lunch or dinner.. The room was always silent, so I played the music all the time, though they were always the same old songs from my laptop.. Sometimes I didn't say a single word throughout the day, sometimes I did, perhaps with my mum in the phone, or with the hawker when I packed my meal..There used to be many things running inside my mind, sometimes while driving, I might think, let say I suddenly disappear from the world, do you think anyone will notice it?? But somehow or rather, once a time I used to adapt to this kind of life, by living alone in one corner of the world.. Slowly and eventually.. I adapted it without any complaint..

Until the day I met my Mr.R, my life has totally changed.. I found my life is fully occupied, with studies and clinical work in hospital during the day, and sweet dating in some lovely evening.. Then we'll spend our weekends together, stuck with each others for the precious 48 hours.. We cuddling together for movie, playing around and tickling each others, telling funny stories in our lives, having warm shower together in the bath tub, holding hands when sleep, morning kissing once awake.. Everything is just fantastic when we are together, and those are the happiest moment throughout my four years time in this busy city fulled of hustle and bustle..

Thanks God for bringing such a wonderful person into my life.. ^^

Love to be pampered

10/07/10

Key-Morning, he drove me and one of his friend to work..
Just about to reach, he touched his pocket and found no key, then he turned to his friend and asked him whether he is holding his office key..I was thinking maybe they forgot to bring the key or what..

Never expect that when his friend took out the key, what he told him was to pass the key to me.. Both his friend and I was wondering, what was it for.. And he said, 'So that she no need to walk too far.' He dropped me right in front of the club, while they drove to the parking lot which was some distance away..

Seeing his act, I just feel so sweet! How nice, to have such a considerate and lovely man.. And I just, love to be pampered by him!! ^^

Secret

24/06/10

Sex and the city--
I like this movie, especially the part when Carrie decided to tell Big she was kissing with her ex, though all her best friends told her not to do so. Bearing with the risks that her marriage might just be screwed up by this incident, still she decided to be honest to the man she loves, as what she said, there shouldn't be any secret between them..

I'm pretty agree with her. That's the reason why I always tell him the guys whoever tried to approach me. You know what, actually I can just hide it as he will never knows, ever since he never suspicious on me. But I just don't know why, right in front of him, I can't tell any lies.. I have no ability to lie, to the man I love and who loves me so much too.. Perhaps Carrie and I have the same belief, there shouldn't be any secret between two people who love each others so much.

Well, there is something I always say, I have already found the best guy, what should I expect more?? I'm contented enough, just to be loved by this man. ^^

Am I?

'I don't need anyone in my life.'-

He said this in our conversation. I was shocked, and very quiet.. There was a very strong feeling of sadness arising from the bottom of my heart. I felt very very very sad.. sad until I can't even open my mouth to give him any response. He didn't notice, tears were running around my eyes..

'So you meant you don't need me as well.' After some moment, I managed to speak something. He noticed there was something wrong, immediately he hold my hand, said he didn't mean that, just something wrong with the words he used.

I knew he never meant that, but still my heart was broken once those words were heard. Suddenly I felt myself had become someone very different from the 'me' before I met him. I have become a very sensitive girl, I will smile for very small sweet things that he does, and shed tears for just the stupid nothing that he did. Suddenly I have a doubt, am I doing the right thing for loving him so much.. Am I??

Tell me please

thousands of gratitude-

I noticed that i never do things right, most of the time the tasks and things passed on to my hands are either spoiled or ruined. My mum said this is my fate since small, and she has lost her patience for getting mad on me, since it won't make any changes...

And ever since we been together until now, i spoiled most of the properties in the house, and ruined most of the tasks which were under my responsibility. I broke the lock of the room, destroyed the shower head, lost the plug for bathtub, dropped the cushion, dumped the nail cutter somewhere I can't even recall.. There are always problems created by me, forgot to bring the important stuff while already on the way where reverse is not allowed, laptop being hacked and need urgent format yet didn't know what and where the driver was, found the car battery was empty at midnight and need to change it soon before the day, forgot to off the light and caused the house fulled of insects in all species.. there are too lots to mention, and the worse one was that I trapped the cheque in the printer and get it printed with words..

All after all, what surprised me most, was that he never ever get irritated or throw a single word on me..Never never never.. What he did were just solving all the problems that I created and repaired all the things that i spoiled...

Tell me please, who else in the world can treat me better than him..who else in this world can love me more than he does..